I work in contact with people, customers and have to smile and be polite and patience most of the time. And so I smile and laugh and try to be patience. Some days I just can’t bear it anymore and I start crumbling and falling and falling and I just want to scream for help cause I can’t live like this, I can’t live. It’s not just work, it’s this world, this life, these people, it’s everything and the nothingness of it. Please stop it. Stop doing that. I can’t bear this. I wish I could die.